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more concerning my songwriting process: it's imperative, I think, not to fall into the trap of making the music and lyrics too inaccessible, lest we alienate the audience before we've started. this idea of Rex of making a story-based concept for the songs is a sound one, but I wonder if that goal would be at all attainable this early on. but I really wish for my act to be a successful one. we should be able to compose more or less catchy riffs and melody lines on the musical side, but keeping the themes of the songs at once comprehensible and identifiable while simultaneously preserving a sufficient level of intellectual stimulation in the lyrics actually poses a quite challenge in itself. but I know I'm up to it.

random thought: wouldn't the oldskool black metallers who only craved misery, evil, and repulsiveness for all be (un)happier dating some reeeeally ugly women? (yes, I'm looking at you, Mayhem members!)

damn, my right arm is showing signs of beginning strain injury. wouldn't I like to be prescribed some hours of personal training again... maybe I'd be starting to eat again too, then.

I'm pretty sure I weigh less now than I did last year at this time, having then attended regular, 3-times-a-week gym lessons to prevent this exact ailment. and then workload hit, or I just got tired of it. as most other things in my life. (always saw some hint of myself in the Rat's description of Mr. Toad: "It's all the same, whatever he takes up; he gets tired of it, and starts on something fresh.")

consumed today, thus far:

1 banana

1 mango yoghurt müsli

4 cups of coffee

3 100 mm cigarettes

consumed yesterday:

2 fistfuls of popcorn

1 glass of water

1/2 liter of Solo Plus

1 vanilla bun w/coconut frosting

1 king size Japp chocolate bar

2 1/2 hg assorted chocolate&candy

1/2 liter ginseng cocktail smoothie

>5 cups of coffee