the spirit is flying but the bird's still in the cage

when I try to delve into the morass of thoughts and notions I have considering my existence here, I return to thinking: "it's not so bad... not so bad after all". even if this means stagnation. and the gods know I loathe that.

so where should I take my life? judging from what I've accomplished after I got home (nothing, save a few self-gratifying exercises like surfing, eating sliced bread with peanut/chocolate butter and watching tv, of all things), I need to re-adjust that compass and find my direction pretty soon. or I'm going to decline for sure. not into decadence, but into oblivion.

and that doesn't correspond with my goals.

lucky to have friends, I am. and a very ess O. hope they can assist me here.

grrr rrr rrr rrrooovy!!

I want to make a metal cover of this song!