what passed, c'est ne pas möglich?

and I still don't think this whole thing is all that healthy. primarily because I don't know where it is all going to end. I worry for little reason, I realize that, but I dread the day that will surely come, sometime in the future. for I know not how I can avoid hurting, one way or the other. or one person or the other.

the weekend with Callie was pretty wonderful. she told me it would definitely make her "top 10 weekends" list. and she has grown on me a lot this summer. (not just due to her platform shoes.) I know she has deviously placed lures systematically in order to seduce me. it appears she has at last met with success. I have never told her anything I didn't mean, so when I tell her that I care deeply for her it is indeed the way things are.

but can it last? she must know that I have long been aware of her previous act(s) of, ah, indecisiveness. and on my part there have been some instances of less-than-righteous devotion as well... this was never planned. I'm still unsure of what to do with it, where I am to take it. and what horrible things she carries the potential for doing should she ever feel scorned by me, I am loath to think of.

"I do feel a little proud, having managed to capture you." --Callie

didn't get to work nearly as much as planned tonight. gonna have to go soon and give BadCop my copy of the second issue of the new comics anthology, as well. he's supposed to write a review for it, but I wonder where he finds time. and I didn't get to work on the music either this weekend. bummer!

"Trouble with you is, you're not capable of saying no!" --Callie