don't mind stealing bread

a man of decent morals. I am. I think.

I wish.

what I find really ironic is that now, of all times, my self-doubt is manifesting more heavily again. but I so want to be kind. a nice person. and I know it sometimes takes priority before my own best interests.

what to do - two different inquiries from two different directions on the same day. no wonder I get irresolute. but as I finally seem to get settled, is the die cast? forever?

don't mean to be so cryptic. it's still a question of having earned something. to be entitled to something good, because it's as deserved. which leaves me in a position where my duty is to fulfill.

regardless of what eventual reward awaits me. or lack of such.
I'm just so sorry to disappoint anyone. I constantly want to avoid that.

like on Sunday... gods. I felt so shameful. =( damned if I did and if I didn't. and it all turned out to become a much bigger deal than I had counted on. I should muster some courage to call them up and apologize. today.

do the evolution

heh. didn't notice until now, but the January issue of The War Against Silence has reviewed Ayumi Hamasaki, and in the process gotten heavily into J-Pop. (to the point of taking an 8-week course in Japanese.) (no, really!)

with tunes like these, Japan would have won every Eurosong there is.

references to entries in my journal from last year (this is the "told-you-so" section):
august 20th
august 30th

Kari is better. (Rueslåtten, that is.) =)

during my LJ absence I discovered that Kari Rueslåtten has a new album coming out these days. her new label after her departure with Sony, GMR, has posted three song samples on their web site. the most prominent Kari fan site claims the release date for the album, entitled Pilot, is on May 21st. which explains my difficulty obtaining it through Sound of Noise (!).

I think Maragor in particular will enjoy this album. the production of the songs seems to be very stripped compared to her other two solo albums.

got an idea... what if I asked BadCop permission to write a small interview with her for City or something? heh. should beware of any eventual jealousy from SO's, then. =) tread carefully. good idea.